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I lean over the kitchen

sink

with that bad feeling

coming on

I feel hot and white

and spaced out

I feel the urge

deep inside me

I

want

to

vo-

mit

but

I

can't

I

stare

through watery eyes

at the stainless steel

hole

that old

plug hole

that takes all the

stuff we feed it

grapefruit pips

cold coffee grounds

rinsings from bowls

scrapings from plates

detergent

grease

blood

water

vomit

imagine

swallowing all this

without any choice

and every now and then

a few times a day

having a round hard plug

shoved in your mouth

stopped

breathless

waiting

for the rush

of washing-up slime

that will suddenly

pour down

like a hot bad flood

terror

and

constriction

and

then

emptiness

I

can't do it

I

can't vomit in this sink

the plug hole

says, 'O,'

then, 'Uh!'

the plug hole

changes shape

into

an ugly smile

the pathetic thing

is trying to smile

trying

to thank me

I feel a surge of

pride

yes

I'm pleased with myself

I have stopped

a horrible thing happening

I will become famous

in the annals of the plug holes

they will always be grateful

to the first human

to have mercy on them

to spare them

from a fate full of

...

I lean over the kitchen

sink

with that bad feeling

coming on

I feel hot and white

and spaced out

I feel the urge

deep inside me

I

want

to

vo-

mit

and

I

do

!  

 

 

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